The company did matter. We were sitting together and talking about issues that really matter. No, not about results or cca performance but about friendships and unity. I have been wrong all my life. Ever since I graduated from kuo chuan presbyterian primary with stellar results, I always thought that life meant doing the best that i can do - scoring the best grades, obtaining a leadership position... but all these things were about myself. If life is only about the individual, thats really not a life well lived. Being in chc has really opened my horizons. I mix with people from various backgrounds, i come into contact with people from broken families and with people who have so much to give... James envisioned a cell grp in which everyone is not individualistic, a cell grp in which all our lives are intertwined, one which we can say for sure that these are my 24/7 friends not my sunday church friends. all it takes is effort... and i have decided that i do need to make that effort.

A year of breakthroughs was what God promised me. But i do realise that if i do not keep an open mind to new possibilities, i will not be able to experience these breakthroughs. This year, God has given me a burden for people from broken families and for my close friends. I am presently exploring avenues to help these people. But i do know i should start from my family and my cell group. if you cannot serve the people you love, what more strangers.

I wanna climb many mountains this year.

SOT here I come.

And to my utmost surprise, my teacher mentor is Mr Tan! my math teacher! :) really glad cos i really do think that he's the best teacher i have ever met. I really need to become as patient as he is and remember how he used to explain why we multiply a number by [insert no.] factorial to permutate. i think i have forgotten my hypo testing as well... was going thru the steps w jianhong. and oh my... took a while for it to come back.

To me, such an arrangement is really God's blessing.

I went for overnight prayer meeting yesterday. it was a zone prayer meeting. and it was powerful. really awesome. Yi lun prayed for the people who received revelation from God to become a cell grp leader. Before the altar call, i was searching my heart, asking God if all the signs that He had shown me were real. And God gave me the reassurance that I was to feed His sheep. even though i have a very long way to go... i'm gona stay loyal to city harvest, pastor, yilun, james and weilin. :) In retrospect, i really feel that being in chc has given me greater purpose in life. I have learnt to become more positive, more loving and more giving. Such things I will never learn without these people that God has placed in my life. Since I will be going to SOT this March, I believe there is more in store for me :)

Dear God, I want to be the best teacher I can be. The best daughter I can be to my parents. The best friend that I can be. The best "mother" I can be to the little ones in church.

This year will be a year of breakthrough as You have promised. I will make sure it happens :)

To God be the glory :) In Jesus' name, Amen.